DISAPPOINTED

ouh god!apehal je nyh.i tk phm la ngn bf i.mcm bdo own ade jugak dye nyh..
citernye mcm nyh,smlm i suro dye amek i d shlh pada bsk nye.i nyh still student lg pown my mum my dad abg2 smue tk de.i sty sorng je sejak due menjak nyh,then i mnx tlong dngn bf i.
so i pg shlh,dlm kul11 mcm to i msg dye i tot abg tk pegi kije.i nk suro abg je amek.
tk nk nyusah kn bf i.kul 12 i cl abg dye ckp tk dpt amek.i cl bf i soh amek dye ckp tk pat nk amek,dye suro i naek bas.
so i pown tnggu la bas dgn panas terik nye.i dh la tk biase naek bas.
tmbng pown tk tau bpe.
hmm.i tngu2 pnye la lme.bru la ade bas.
smpai2 je kt umh i text bf i.i ckp dh smpai dye bising2 tnye i blek naek ape.
i sje la ckp jln kaky.dye tnye lg ckp la btl2..i grau lg i ckp naek kaky.
tk lme lps to dye mule tuduh i.
dye ckp i blek naek moto dngn ex cpl i.mcm sial je.padahal i menhan panas kt bastop mcm bdoh!ei skt nye haty.
dngn lth2 nye to.mcm nk pecah je kple nyh i rse.skrg lngsng tk cntct i.mcm bdo kn.i mcm nk buno dry pown ade jugak.ape lg yg dye nk i tk tau.i bnyk sba dngn ape yg dye buat.tp snyap.i snyap sbb i mls nk gado i syg dye.i klu bole mmng tk nk tinggal kn dye.tp klu dh mcm nyh mcm mne nk than lg.pls la.
mcm ne nyh.???

help me pls.??

hm.i got no idea act.mcm maen kn persaan org pown ade jugak.
i love this both person in the same time.
i syg mrke bt how yea i nk kne choose each one of them.yg i syg bf i n my ex.
they hve two diffrnt chrcter..i need to choose which is bettr fr me.
tp mcm susa sngt nk lps due2.i syg due2.n tk bole nk hidup tnpa mrke.
so how yea.??mne yg lg penting.??
my bf or my ex cpl.

BF i nyh jenis yg mcm nk tk nk amek tau psl i.mcm tk amek pedulik sngt yg dye tao nk marah n ape yg dye buat smue btl.i ckp ckit mule nk slh kn i ..n dye jenis yg suke lpk2 dngn mmb.more to fren then me.tp dye sweet.dye baek.dye syg i.i tau sbb i nmpk ape yg dye buat untuk i bkn trpkse tp dngn rse syg dye dkt i.dye buat ikhlas.tp to la,dye susa i nk mnx tlong.mcm bz sngt dngn hidup dye.then dye bole lupe kn i bile2 mse dye nk.klu susa bru crik i .bru nk ckp syg rindu.nk jumpe n blabla~~

EX dye sme skulah n sme level je dngn i.dye baek dye snng i mnx tlong tp to la.
i ade bf tp mnx tlong org laen mcm tk de gune i ade bf.smue tk bole nk hrp kn bf i.smue nye ex i yg tlong.i mcm terhutang budi dkt dye.kdng2 sdeyh dpt bf mcm bf i to.tp i kuat.evryday i sba n i cube perbtlkan keadaan tp.it juz a same as usual...i dh blur.then my ex keep coming over me.dye yg dtng layan i mcm mne i nk.dye jmp i slalu.dye yg bnyk bantu i n wht kind of things i mnx tlong.dye sngt nice to me.sato kple.suke gelak2 dengn dye.suke borak2 yg bukan2 dngn dye.dye sngt open.

so i donnw which one off them yg ptt jge i btl2.i need a person y btl2 bole jge i n syg kn i.bkn sbb i nyh jd mangse bile dorng susa or whtevr.hmm.i confuse.. =C